A Meditation Newbie
(Grand Prairie, Texas, USA)
Recently I was diagnosed with type II diabetes. The day before I had committed to stop smoking. Then the depression set in.
I am no stranger to depression and have, over the last 20 years, taken medications and been hospitalized for this illness. I did not want to go that route again.
I had found some useful meditation videos on YouTube and eventually found out about a book titled The Mindful Way through Depression. I purchased it and began reading. The Mindful Way Through Depression: Freeing Yourself from Chronic Unhappiness (Book & CD)
So much of what is written in this book made sense to me and I was eager to start putting the suggestions into practice. After several chapters I am now at the point of starting on an 8 week mindfulness course which teaches mindfulness meditation to help break the cycle of chronic depression.I know that I desperately need to learn to relax and let go of the stress and worry in my life and live it one day at a time.
The internet is a wonderful tool and resource to help educate oneself about illness such as diabetes, or depression or how to be happy in retirement but there is so much information all written by a variety of different people living vastly different lives. Even the medical communities cannot seem to agree on issues of health and treatment for illness. I now realize that I am stressing myself out emotionally trying to do everything "right" because of the fear I have of what might happen if I don't eat right, exercise daily, stay active and so forth.
But this is my life and I have to do what is right for me! Yes I will take my medications, eat healthy, exercise daily but I also need to nourish myself emotionally and remember that I live one day at a time and that so much of my stress is literally all in my mind!
I believe that daily meditation as part of my new lifestyle will bring the healing I so desperately need. I must learn to be me and take what I need from the advice and ideas and experiences of others and make it work for me!
And I am still smoke free after 1 month!