Retirement and depression

I was terminated from my job and given a forced early retirement. I was (and still am) battling depression and anxiety. I thought I hid it very well, but apparently not after all.

There is a CATCH 22 here. I feel worthless and distraught over being home alone, but don't know if I can work with the depression/anxiety. A mental health counselor told me I am disabled and can't hold a job. I also have various medical appointments scheduled each month.

My wife still works, which adds to my shame. My retirement amount is modest. I do some volunteer work and help out/visit my pastor friend at church office one or two days a week.

I wish I could just kick back and enjoy myself, but that is not the case.

I don't have that many close friends, mostly acquaintances.

My wife has a lot of hobbies and interests. I eliminated most of mine through the years.

In closing, I feel trapped and stuck.

Wendy: I'm taking a class right now based on the Too Young To Retire book, about all the options in retirement.

First, my parents had few friends when they first retired -- too busy working. Somehow they found friends. Go out to lunch. Go to the Library. Look for events in your town and just walk around, breathing in the fresh air!

Second, think about what you enjoyed as a kid. Is there a hobby you used to enjoy before you had to be responsible and raise a family? Consider looking into that hobby again, there might be a local group that does it, or find a chat group on line that talks about it over email.

So many opportunities... don't worry about not working, find something to fill your time with.
It really will help!