Disability: Having a hard time with acceptance

I am on disability and have had a difficult time with adjusting. I suffered a massive breakdown at work and went on disability. It took me awhile to get to a functional level where I became able to deal with my illnesses and make some progress.


I have chronic fatigue syndrome, fibromyalgia, major depressive disorder and bipolar, which all were factors in my breakdown. I also struggle with hypothyroidism and while I am on medication, my thyroid levels have fluctuated wildly in the past two years, causing more difficulties.

I manage by pacing, medication and counselling. I have days where things are very bad and others where I am functional at home and can also go out.

My symptoms are unpredictable in intensity and duration. I feel like I have lots to do and can actually be content but I am having much difficulty in accepting that I am on disability and having to deal with these conditions.

This has brought about a sense of purposelessness. I feel useless because I am not working and everything I do seems useless. I think I feel that I am not entitled to feel content on disability. I so want to make peace with my situation.

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Understandable
by: Renee

I understand what you are going through. I have not received my disability yet but am unable to go back to work for many of the same reasons. The job made my problems worse and I am working on recovering from the effects or the PTSD.

Find your abilities again
by: Laura in Vermont

Your breakdown sounds awful! It isn't easy to go through one, I know (believe me!) and it's no walk in the park living with chronic conditions like yours.

That said, you do have a way out. You can make recovering from it your job. Recovering just means getting on with life despite your challenges. You are not your diagnoses, and they don't control you. They may make the seas rough but you're still driving your boat.

Recovery can start with treatment but it's more than that. While you're still building up. find some things you like to do just for you and do them. Give yourself time to get interested in the bigger picture. Be gentle with yourself.

Writing or talking about your challenges with others can be a powerful experience, whether you do it online for sites like this one, or at a group or peer support center. You might even look into finding a local chapter of the National Alliance for Mental Illness. They're always looking for people to volunteer.

You might want to get a job down the line. Your state vocational rehabilitation office would help with training if needed and job hunting for something you can do without committing to a strict 9 to 5 schedule.

Whatever you do, please take good care of yourself. That's the most important thing you can do. Everything else can come along once you have your feet under you.

PLEASE GIVE YOURSELF A CHANCE
by: Anonymous

I understand it will take time to comes to terms with your disability, but you will do it if you want to. I was told that I had approximately 3 months until I was dead or enter into a vegetative state.

I went home with the expectation, that I would no longer being a functioning human being, and for the first 3 months I just waited and prayed for a quick ending.

I then kept waking up and could not understand why, and now I have seen many reasons, in my life, why I was meant to be here. Even though not all turned out perfect I did pretty damn good.

Since then, I have raised two boys, one on my own from the time he was 11, retired from a career of 30 years, working part time for another 13, and get up every morning giving thanks that I am given another day. You can do this and you will.

Soon it will be the 41st anniversary of when my doctor told me there was no hope, so you see, there is hope, but please put the effort in as it will make each day special. You may suffer daily, but it is one more day that has been given.

PLEASE, GIVE YOURSELF A CHANCE.

Spirituality
by: Anonymous

I know couple of people who have similar challenges as you.

I find getting into spirituality helps a lot. Simple exercises such as deep breathing everyday will bring many benefits.

There are a few ways you can do deep breathing. There are videos on You Tube that you cal look up.
Try and google Pranayam and read about it. It is all about deep breathing everyday for one hour.

Wish you all the Best. I am sure you will be much happy person once you start Pranayam.

We can be better
by: Sylvie Lister Cumbria UK

I feel that in this life we need to help ourselves.
Please, please read Medical Medium by Antony Williams and it will change your life for the better.


Disability and acceptance
by: Elna Nugent, MA

Have you ever thought about how much people can learn from your experiences and challenges? And you can learn something from almost any person you know or meet as well..

You were born for a reason. We all were. And you have a reservoir of life experiences to share. You can begin by writing them down. Each of us is a book for someone to read.

Only those who have lived a long time have the most to tell including all the challenges and/or maybe because of them.

You are valuable , "Write yourself down on paper." beginning tomorrow-- writing new and odd things that can happen in each day. If you are unable to write or use a computer, speak your thoughts into a microphone and tape it. Many blessings to you.

Disability: Time To Live Life Again!
by: Wendy

Disability, to me, simply means your decision to make t the retirement decision was forced upon you.

Work is not the real YOU - it was simply a means to make a living. THAT realization takes time... it did for me!

You said you were making progress on your health. CELEBRATE those small victories!

Go Live Life! This is your Time!

p.s. check out this Intuitive Listening audio set. Something like this, playing in the background of life, as you heal could be just the thing to reverse your stinking disabiity thinking. Help you heal and live life quicker!

Best Wishes!

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