Fear of retirement
I worked for the schools for 41 years and retired last year. I have always feared retirement.
My husband lays around all day sleeping or watching TV. When he talks, I respond but I look up and he is asleep. He has trouble walking due to a problem with his right foot. So now I'm stuck at home and we never do anything.
He will leave the house not saying anything. He is going out to get something to eat. He never takes me. He has always talked about his past and he continues to. He complains a lot and very seldom have anything positive to say.
When I say something wrong or ask a question he says I'm stupid. I have to leave the room.
I don't drive due to a physical condition. I try to schedule buses or cabs to pick me up.
I have to get out. I need a social life. I need to be appreciated. My kids are too busy to stop by anymore. They used to be here all of the time on the weekends.
Consider volunteering at someplace near the home. Get Out. Don't stay home and get treated that way. Go out to eat yourself... call a friend and make a lunch date. Go to a movie. Go to the Library (maybe even volunteer there if its nearby). Just figure out what to do, anything outside the home, and Enjoy Life Again....