4 Years and struggling to stay engaged with life.
I retired 4 years ago - happy to leave a job that I no longer found fulfilling. I didn't miss work at first because I had lots of projects I wanted to do.
After a few years, the projects have turned into home maintenance problems and the reality of leaner finances have struck home. I can't afford to do what really needs to be done. So, I do nothing.
I lost my husband a few years before I retired and belong to a widows support group. Since I lost all my work and couples friends, the ladies in the group have become my friends. (no family close by)
Unfortunately, I am the youngest of the group and the majority of them never had careers outside the home so they are content with the stay at home lifestyle. I have lost interest and really can't afford to do the things that I used to do so I do nothing.
I do splurge on travel but then feel guilty for the rest of the year for wasting money. My doctor did prescribe an anti-depressant last fall that seems to have helped. I went to the only counselor in the area a few times but she is a school counselor - kids. I was her only mature patient. She was very nice but I don't feel she can help me.
I hate paying someone to have a nice chat every few weeks without any feeling of improvement.
I do volunteer work (Food Pantry & Meals on Wheels) several days a week but it's not enough. I actually would rather be at home alone doing nothing. (dangerous, I know)
I over analyze everything so that doesn't help. I wish I were happy just keeping a clean house and working in the yard but I'm not. So I do nothing.
Everything I want to do costs money I don't have to spend. I have no interesting in working again.
I don't know what I should be doing...