8 months into retirement - partially forced
I worked as a senior tax manager in the corporate commercial department of a large regional CPA firm. I retired about 8 months ago at 62 1/2 ( after 20 years at this firm and 10 years at another prior to that).
Original plan was for 65, but Retirement was sort of forced. It built up over the past two years where the stress got to me and I was either close to or had a breakdown ( extreme depression and anxiety).
I went from complete top performer to struggling daily. Received my first poor performance review in all of those years. My partner became a dick to me. Could not do it anymore so for health reason, retired ( plus I did not want to get fired. Wanted to leave somewhat on my terms).
It has really been up and down, still struggling with my demons, seeing a therapist which has been a long difficult haul. Thankfully doing better than when I started. Made it through the winter months while struggling within myself.
I volunteer twice a week at a Nature Center (very nice people) about 10 hours per week since December 2018, go the gym couple of times a week, recently started taking tennis lessons once a week for an hour, plan on riding my bicycle and possibly joining local weekend bike club to get out with people now that the weather is getting nicer and signed up for 4 week digital photography class starting in July.
I was hoping that I would feel more fulfilled after 8 months, but still feel empty pockets of time and emotionally.
Unfortunately, my wife is not into doing similar things, but we do go out to eat, museum periodically, take walks when weather is nice and talk politics (luckily we have same party affiliations) . She has become a FB and Instagram addict (about politics), but I cannot sit there like that.
I apologize for rambling on.....
..... Has it taken anyone else this much time to adapt to retirement ?.. I am really trying to establish new life, but still feel that my old life was cut short involuntarily. No desire whatsoever to go back to Public Accounting even PT and not sure what if any job I would want right now.