Always Depressed ... But More Depressed after Retirement (as well as working from home, that is)
by Deborah A. P.
(Bensalem, PA, USA)
I have suffered from depression for most of my life, but was able to (mostly) handle it by keeping busy being a wife, mother, workaholic, student, divorcee, always-there-for-you friend, wife (second marriage), workaholic, student, and always-there-for-you friend. I hope you get the repetition here!
Now I'm retired since 10/23/13 and working as a freelance writer, proofreader, and editor from home. The only problem is ... that since the Great Recession, my work has dwindled down to less hours, even though I get a new client from time to time.
Yes, I'm back into watching General Hospital (which I stopped watching for more than 20 years) and I'm doing mixed media art when the inspiration hits ... but the anxiety and depression are consuming me.
My husband is almost eight years younger than me and is still working at a job that he is less than happy about. I really appreciate his stick-to-itiveness, though. We haven't had a vacation (even a long weekend together) in years, so life just doesn't hold much excitement (although I know that excitement isn't really what we're looking for).
Any comments or observations that would help me/us?
Wendy: My question is: WHY haven't you had a vacation? I just returned from a weekend website conference and I am completely remotivated and renewed.
Getting away does wonders! Whether you choose a conference for freelance writers/editors, or a weekend trip (even just an hours drive from where you live). Get out, go exploring, learn something new, it's a great time to reflect on life and just renew yourself!