Anxiety/depression early retirement
I retired at 52 after 27 years in fire service. Was ready to go after watching a few buddies die of cancer.
Sold my house up north, ended a relationship (we both new what the retirement plan was), and moved into my vacation home in Arizona.
Everything went according to plan, joined clubs, travelled a bit, had plenty of friends visit, and after only three months I just had an anxiety attack, and feeling of despair that I have never experienced in my life.
I can't focus on simple tasks, wandering around the house like a caged lion. I am excercising and riding my bike, playing poker with group, etc...but have fallen into the deepest depression and don't understand why. This is everything I planned for.
Money is not an issue.
I have a Dr apps for tomorrow. I have never felt such a feeling of loneliness and despair. What is going on... (rhetorical)