Are you disallusioned with life?
I have been on a path of trying to understand people. I don't know if I've ever felt so invisible or not needed. I have tried for the last few years so many directions to make friends and share some of my passions and wanting to learn from others.
I"ve tried churchs. . . and I have nothing against them but it just doesn't work for me. I am currently volunteering once a week and working part time.
The business I have worked for 16 years has been effected tremendously by the medical insurance mess! I have watched so many people walk away. Work is very slow. It's just me and my boss now. I know some day soon he will close.
I have no idea what I will do. I am 67 and recently had a fall and broke my knee cap. The healing process is slow. I don't feel good half of the time. It makes it difficult to walk with the pain.
My kids are 43 and 40. I never thought they would be so selfish. They are just too busy with their things. It's sad. Long story. They no longer want to exchange presents for birthdays or holidays. Even small presents to me was perfectly fine. It just meant that they took the time to shop. I don't understand.
I never quit buying gifts for my mother until she died. Small and large gifts were so appreciated by her. What has happened? I bought a very nice dress for my daughter and I wanted to stop by let her try it on. She called to say that she didn't what to hurt my feelings, but she didn't want the dress. She has her own likes, so I will send it back.
I could go on and on. . but I am just so tired of trying to find something that works. I hate feeling this way.