At loose ends...
I decided to retire - I didn't have to retire but was of age. I had held several high level professional positions that had cast me into public view as well as leadership roles.
I had all kinds of great plans - learn French and to play piano, take up painting and write the great novel.
Now that I'm actually 'retired', I can't seem to marshal the energy to follow through with much of anything. I allow mundane house hold tasks to take up much of my day. I shun crowds or even meeting with people, preferring to 'hole up' in my comfort zone of our house.
I feel worthless and useless. I'm invisible when I go to the store. When younger people open a door for me and smile, I feel depressed. I decided to seek treatment with a qualified therapist and feel this was a good decision.
I'm not 'out of the woods' yet, but at least I see daylight on the horizon. I am also going to force myself to take some risks (like I did when working)and put myself out there. Wish me luck.
Much of what you are experiencing is what many of us felt... and like the rest of us, you will survive retirement.
Oddly enough, I bet younger folks opened the doors and smiled at you when you were 40... but NOW you watch for those things and feel them differently.
You didn't mention your age, but if you do want to get back into the workplace in some capacity - consider it. We aren't all ready for retirement simply when we reach that magical entitlement age. You might not work full time, but maybe part time, maybe contractual helping companies do what you did before retirement, or maybe you start a home based business.
There is a world out there in front of you and so many opportunities... if you'd like help finding your way to the next adventure in life, please contact me via the "contact wendy" in the left column, bottom of page.