Delayed Post-Retirement Blues
by Nancy M
(Sylvan Lake, AB Canada)
I retired in March 2013. My first summer off my husband thought it would help me to transition into retirement so he organized a road trip that took us from Alberta, our home province, to Ontario (where I was born and raised and where my family all still live).
We spent 2 months there and arrived back in Alberta a month before we were scheduled to depart for our winter vacation to Yuma AZ. I was fine that winter because I knew I was going back to Alberta to a summer job. This schedule continued for the next 3 years..wintering in Yuma and working in the summer in Alberta.
All that changed this past winter. The job I was doing during the summers was no longer available, so I spent the winter agonizing over what I was going to do when I returned home for the summer.
I went into a deep depression and suffered with bouts of anxiety and panic attacks starting in November which got progressively worse as the winter months went by. I couldn't figure out why I was feeling like this until it dawned on me that for the first 4 years of my retirement I always had a job to go back to during the summer months and now all of a sudden I had no job waiting for me.
After reading the stories on this site on how people feel right after they retire, I am wondering if I'm experiencing a delayed reaction to my retirement. In other words it took me 4-5 years to feel what people typically experience within the first 4-9 months of retiring.
In case anyone is wondering, I sent out resume after resume applying for jobs that were posted on a job search web site, but had no luck landing a job. I am doing some volunteering but I don't find it keeps me busy enough.
I am on medication to help me deal with the depression and anxiety which has helped me tremendously. I'm not looking forward to going south this fall for fear of digressing back into the same state I was in last winter.
Has anyone experienced a delayed reaction to retirement, and can you offer any helpful suggestions on how to deal with it and get past this negative state of mine I'm experiencing.