Depressed one week into retirement
I was looking forward to retirement for the last couple of years. I had a great fun retirement party and was on cloud 9 until 2 days later.
That was a week ago and I have been depressed and constantly crying for the past week.
All the lists of things I had I wanted to do my first couple of months in retirement are sitting there untouched. I don't have the desire to do the smallest chore. I don't sleep at night and I barely eat.
I am single and just had a relationship end two months prior and my daughter lives across the country, so I feel very much alone.
When I try to talk with friends about the way I feel, they just don't understand. I feel like no one understands. When I go out with friends, I can't wait until the event ends so I can go home, but when I am home, I don't want to be there alone.
I am confused and totally taken by surprise at this reaction to what should be one of the best times of my life.
Wendy: Unfortunately, what you are experiencing is very normal, and yet not spoken about much (except here). I moved your "comment" here, so it's on one page, and others can comment back to you specifically.
One thing that stands out about you - it seems kinda early to fall into depression. Normally, I see retirees who are in vacation-mode first, then they finally realize this is it... permanent vacation (if you choose that). Later, 2-3 months, or 2 years later, they realize they have lost their work identity and struggle with who the new "me" is. They also don't know what to fill the previous 8 hours a work day with... what do I do now?
Another thing, you mentioned a great retirement party. I also had a fantastic party... so many came to send me off into retirement. Department heads, elected officials, employees and retirees all came to say "Job Well Done, Wendy!" It was quite an honor. It also brought feelings of "Are you doing the right thing? Why retire at 55 since you love your job?" and more... One more catch 22 of retirement... grin!
I will stop here and let other retirees add their thoughts... I hope someone has the magic words that suddenly make your situation perfectly clear. Clear enough that you move on to your To Do List... and a happy retired life!
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