Depression before; much worse after retirement
I am being treated for depression for years talk therapy (stopped) and medication (now on Cymbalta).
I retired at 62. Downsizing and incentive package in a job that I was hating. At first the free time was great. Read books, watched TV. My husband continues to work part time in a job he loves. He also has hobbies, skiing, motorcycle riding, bee keeping, photography. I have 3 dogs that I thought I would spend a lot more time doing things with, but not really.
My brother died this year. He is the last of my family. It really hit me hard. That was in July, but I got hit by a massive depression/anxiety in Nov. Can't function. Can't cook, or clean. insomnia tense stomach. Want to cry. I have no friends to talk to. My son can't relate (25yr).
My husband is trying to cope with my falling apart. Doctor just added Wellbutrin to my meds. Only been a few days. I'm scared to get up in the morning, but I can't sleep either. I try some small exercise, taking dogs on walks, and I am ok during that, but doesn't change how I feel when we get back. I don't want to hear bad news on the TV or read it in the newspaper. Just makes me feel worse.
I'd like to have some friends to talk with that can relate to my mental problems. I guess I should do some volunteer work, but I am not religious and so many seem to be with church groups.