Depression mainly caused by husband
So after losing my dear mum i got very low. Was actually low before losing her but not like this, now felt ill, knew it was full blown depression.
Husband (in name only) had got me very low, he does absolutely nothing. I spent years trying to get him to move but now have given up and don't care anymore what he doesn't do.
He's actually made me unable to stand him, can't be in his company. I am out everyday till evening.
But once home, I'm just the same i find myself looking at other people's husbands now. Seeing men involved in life, moving about, enthusiasm etc. No he does not have depression, he says, he does what he does because he can. Trouble is i can not stand it. Know i need to go but the logistics of it are not easy.
He would make it extremely difficult, he would dig his heels in. Were he to accept the truth and go along with divorce, i would jump at it.
Don't know how much longer i can stand, i have nothing to say to him.