Disability: I grieve for my life!
I had to retire in 2004 d/t disabilities that came about after the birth of my twins in 1998. After 2 weeks, I was over it. This is now 2017, my twins have graduated high school, one lives at home. I have an extremely stressful home life. My medical issues continued to increase a little each year, with this summer being a devastating one for me.
My friends all disappeared when I retired; I have no family nearby. At this point, I feel I am with my extremely passive aggressive husband only for the kids and grandkids, and because I need the insurance. He has always been extremely angry that I retired, and placed a good deal of blame on me. We are basically sharing expenses and a house.
Long story shortened (lol) I now, after recently turning 60, am having a hard time accepting the fact that i am no longer young, or young and healthy enough to just be on my own, and I feel scared for the future and completely trapped. I find myself becoming increasingly depressed.
SO...not only is retiring really hard.... but getting OLDER is as well....trust me.