I don't know how to feel...
I try to stay upbeat and am basically a very happy person but don’t know how to go forward with the pain I am feeling now.
My younger sister, my best friend, my touch stone is dying. She has stomach cancer and has fought a courageous battle for over two years. Today found out the cancer is now in her brain.
I don’t know how to feel. Don’t know how to act. Tried to cry but can’t.
She was so excited to retire but when I think back she was showing the first signs of this monstrous disease then. She got married. They bought a beach condo. Then the illness reared its ugly head.
Now all is on hold with treatments and one side effect after another and then this. The final stages I guess.
So I don’t know how to feel or how to act or try to cry or just stay stunned. Just don’t know.