I Feel Like God Is Laughing at Me
Like so many other people, I was laid off from my job because of a company buy out. I, too, did not plan on retiring until I reached full retirement age for Social Security.
I was 62 when I was laid off. I drew unemployment benefits until they ran out but I could not find a job. One prospective employer asked me where I see myself in five years. I had to really hold down my comments and my sarcasm.
I filed for Social Security at 63 and so here I am, poor as a church mouse. What really makes me angry is the last evaluation my company gave me on my last day of employment. They stomped on my self esteem and made me feel like the worst employee they ever had.
It has been two years since I was laid off but the anger still lingers over me like a big black cloud.
Unfortunately, I never acquired any hobbies or additional skills outside my accounting job so it is almost impossible to find a part time job to supplement Social Security. I have never been a social media follower so that is also a drawback to finding work. I have tried to get work at home jobs but they are difficult to get because you have to compete with people all over the United States.
If you do the math, you can end up spending more money than you earn with some of these so called "flexible jobs".
I now find myself asking the question, do I want to live or do I want to die?