by J Robertson
I have been retired since December 9/16.
I wanted to retire.
I planned my retirement.
I did not cry when I left the building on that last, final day.
I realize it's early days.
I expected there would be an adjustment.
I do not feel like my normal self (which can be quite abnormal at the best of times).
I'm so very tired, physically tired.
If I was a turtle and had a shell, I would pull myself inside and tuck away for some long period of time.
I have a husband who's been retired one year longer than me.
I am torn between wanting to withdraw and rest and figure out what my future will hold and having to be 'up' for anything suggested to me.
I'm not feeling very kind, or patient or much of a partner right now.
I don't like being like this, I know it won't last.
Tomorrow is another day.