In transition of retiring and I've already lost my self worth and identity
(Las Vegas, NV)
My husband & I are both 60 yrs. young. We began a small Construction Company almost 40 yrs. ago & are now "semi-retired" & plan to be fully retired hopefully before the end of this year.
Being self-employed at such an early stage in life has it's advantages as well as disadvantages. We were fortunate to raise two children while working from home.
We would leave town once a month, Thursday thru Monday to go camping, skiing, cruising or travel anywhere we could as long as work carried on in our absence. We enjoyed raising our children & spending time with friends over the years. I miss those days terribly.
Both kids are grown & live in California while we are forced to remain where work is. Sadly, we have nobody to inherit our Company. We worked hard to maintain an excellent reputation and gain respect in the industry over the years.
Our children are not interested in the type of construction we provide and truthfully, I can't blame them. It's difficult, dirty work and not a desireable trade. But the money is excellent.
We have raised our family & lived comfortably thanks to our Company. It's very sad to see our doors close when we're ready to retire. It isn't easy to sell an excellent reputation and respect from the community without many assets. We have few physical assits as we've managed to run our business extremely well to create great profitfs.
I have been very depressed over the past few months. The Company basically runs itself so my work is very minimal. My husband is home by noon each day & hits the couch. All I do is clean & watch tv. My kids are far and I miss them very much.
We live in a retirement community but at this time, the residents here are much older than we are. We're the 2nd generation to move here so there are very few, if any other couples close to our age.
I find myself not even wanting to get dressed in the morning as I can work in my jammies! I dont leave the house unless it's to run an errand. I haven't cooked since the kids moved out, almost 8-9 years ago! It seems a waste to go thru all that trouble for just the two of us. I've never been a great cook anyway.
I don't want to die in this house, bored, depressed and in my jammies! I need to do something until we are able to fully retire or I'll deteriorate into an old women before my time! We've worked too hard for so long, it's not fair to end this way!
I want to enjoy my life while I'm still young and able to. I never thought I'd become this depressed, sad & lonely person! It scares me!