Just starting the journey...
by Elana G
My name is Elana, and I am about to retire after 31 years as a NYC elementary school teacher. I am not being forced out, but I am unhappy with the current political climate in which teachers are being forced to teach using high stakes tests to evaluate both our students, and ourselves. So I am choosing this retirement.
Financially, I'm a better place then most, being single with no children. I will have a good pension that I should be able to live comfortably on.
My issues are more part of a life time problem - I have lived with anxiety and depression since the age of seven. Both conditions have been under control thanks to medications, and a good therapist.
At first I though retirement would be heaven, but now I find myself suffering with a huge rise in my levels of anxiety. My therapist tells me that this is normal, which I believe. I guess I just feel guilty for not "loving" retirement right away.
I also have felt distance from colleagues who have been a part of my everyday life for a very long time. The are mostly younger, with small children, so I've had little to no contact with them since school ended.
I guess I'm just worrying "what I want to be when I grow up," in other words will I be able to find ways to enjoy my interests, such as history without falling back into old patterns of depression and anxiety.
I'm just beginning this journey- I can't even file retirement papers until after September 16th, which will be my 55th birthday. I'm happy to have found this site to see how other people are dealing with their individual situations.