Moments of sadness and depression
At the age of 60, I retired at the end of 2013 after working over 35 years with a major company as a mid-level manager.
I had worked all of my life since I was 13 years old and worked even thru college. I felt that it was time to retire, enjoy life, take it easy and take the early retirement offer that was being made by the company.
No more long commutes to the office and long 9-10 hour days.
My first year of retirement went well, I stayed busy upgrading our house. My wife continued her part time job while I worked around the house.
Her mom passed away in 2012 and pretty much since then we've had responsibility for caring for her now 85 year old father. My wife's two brothers who live out of town rarely offer or are available to care for him for even short periods of time so the burden continues to fall on us to care for him. Caring for him for three years now has begun to take its toll on me and my wife. We are fortunate that he is able to feed and dress himself and that he occasionally likes to spend time at the local senior center, however my wife and I are still limited in being able to just leave and do what we would like.
Recently some other family concerns have popped up that we are having to deal with and I've now begun worrying about our investments and if they will be enough to carry us thru our later years.
On top of this, despite being healthy all of my life I required three out patient hospital procedures this year which has really thrown me for a loop.
With all of this going on, a sense of depression & sadness over where all of this is headed has begun to come over me. Not all days are bad but there are days where it just hits me like a ton of bricks.
I really try to be upbeat, pray daily and look at the positives in my life but it is tough, I don't take any meds and just work thu each day a day at a time.
I recently started a part time job to get me out of the house but I hate it, however the thought of quitting is not something that I really want to do. I will continue to look around and hopefully find something that will keep me occupied.
I can certainly relate to many of the comments posted by others regarding life in retirement because personally, things have definitely not turned out the way that I expected.