by Who am I?
I involuntarily retired in 2013 at 57 and am miserable.
I worked in banking for 30 years and spent the last 81/2 working nights. I never really liked the night shift but it was all that was available thru a conversion. Towards the end knowing I was going to lose my job I was so excited because I thought I would really get into my art (I paint and sketch).
Well... after retiring I have had very little interest.
Everything is at a stand still and my anxiety and depression are sometimes more than I can take. My husband and I are on the outs a lot I try to talk to him but he is not and never has been a communicator especially when it comes to feelings.
It just seems like everything bothers me and I am in a funk. I am pretty sure that God and all the saints are tired of hearing from me. I don't know what it is that I want to do or who I am and I find that I am not motivated.
Seems like everything I used to enjoy I don't anymore.