On a merry-go-round and can't get off
by Judy/Louisville, KY
I retired 5 years ago (64 years old) due to a health concern and am having the most difficult time dealing with this transition.
I worked for G.E. for 25 years in management and then started a new career with a company in it's infancy, as Director of Business Development....so, to say the least, my career did define a large portion of "me".
I started to work part-time at a local hospital, registering patients, but my old company asked me to return and I started to work full time again this year, in a far less stressful position.
I live close to my children, so I have spent much of my time with my grandkids, enjoying their soccer games,school activities, etc and watching them mature....but now they are grown and I must say that I am lost.
I can't figure out what I want to be when I grow up. I want to move....I want to stay....I want to work....I don't want to work.....this is the first time in my life that I can't make a decision. I have always been adventurous, but I seem so stuck lately. I have gone through a lot in my life, but this "retirement" has been my most difficult transition.
I feel like I'm spinning and can't stop...now that I am working, I don't want to work.....am I just crazy?