My wife has always been my rock. She managed the family and the money.
Recently she had ITAs, Parkinsons, cognitive and walking issues from a clogged carotid artery and now possibly seizures.
I am 5 years younger and still need to work at least two years until I'm 60. I'm terrified of managing the money and her care. I panic everytime I sense something is wrong.
I've been able to work from home, but it's long hours and eventually I will have to do some work back at the work place.
My depression is becoming worse. Though I take an SSRI, the help is marginal.
I'm afraid of retirement; I grew up with my parents worried about money and have the same feelings. I worry sick about paying medical bills and what will happen to my wife if I get sick because she can't care for herself alone.
I worry too about long term care. I certainly can't afford the insurance, and my wife can't get it given her medical condition. I wake up nights shaking. I could really use some help but don't know what to do.