Retired 2014: Now Spouse is My Qualifier
by Delores C Wright
I am having a hard time trying to understand what caused my spouse to become an alcoholic or a functional alcoholic. He drinks from morning to late night. He verbally abuses me by calling me stupid, dump, lacks respect. While I am trying to talk he calls me dump. My survival kit is books I have purchased from Amazon that are adopted by Al-non. I now have a weekly counselor each week.
We have been married 45 years and I do not want to get a divorce, I am 70 years old, and he has been so verbally abusive until I moved out of the master bedroom, into another room.
Since I retired, I have been volunteering in schools, churches, and teacher stores. My spouse has been retired for about 19 years and he has had two part time jobs. Once he played golf, exercised, but now he suffers from untreated depression. He drives a 1993 car that is about to break down. I feel he is envious of me, I have a great deal of followers because I was a teacher and I reached out to all of my students' and their families. I loved teaching and I am still involved in some form!
Some times I think of dialing 911 and laying the receiver down to have someone listen!
I am going away for an extended stay to support my sister while she is having surgery for colon cancer, so I viewed this trip as GOD'S way of getting me out for a while.
Thanks for Listening!