Retired Big Mistake
I was on sick leave for breast cancer for a year & a half.
I had the opportunity to do a gradual return to my job. I worked in a University bookstore for 20 years. I loved my job but management made work a toxic place at times. I loved the campus & helping students with their books. I had a really horrible commute which took an hour each way. I was all set to do the gradual return & I thought too much about how I hated my commute. One morning I phoned HR & said I want to retire instead of trying to return.
I felt immediately sick. & like I made a huge mistake. I keep saying "If only I hadn’t called " or "why didn’t I call back & cancel the retirement ". I’m battling anxiety & depression.
I’m only 63. I had planned to make it to 65 & then retire. I feel lost & like I made a huge mistake.
All my Drs. encouraged me to go back to work. I should have listened to them.
My husband is retired & is trying to help me. I don’t know what to do.