Retired Early and Miserable
I took a voluntary redundancy from the public service at age 50, after being there nearly 26 years. The workplace had become toxic and my manager was not supportive of me going to another section.
I was unsure whether to take the redundancy when it was offered, but colleagues and work friends told me that It would be crazy to stay. Even my spouse said he thought I would be burnt out if I stayed.
I did not trust my own intuition, which was to stay until 55 and then see how things were at my workplace. I ended up accepting the redundancy, and left on 24 Oct. I have applied for jobs but not been successful. I volunteered at the school where my spouse teaches, but did not enjoy this. So I spend most of my days alone with little to do but housework. I do not see the people I worked with anymore.
I have become anxious and depressed, which is scary.
I do not like waking up in the mornings and facing a day with no life, no purpose. I have been told by people that I'm crazy, and that they would love to be in my shoes. I tell them they don't know what it feels like unless they have experienced it. I know from reading your forum that I am not the only one experiencing this. I feel so lost and hopeless, and nothing seems to help. Even thinking about all the bad things at work that I no longer have to put up with doesn't help.
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