Retired, Law Enforcement
All this sounds familiar. I have been retired for 11 months now after 30 yrs. I retired for numerous reasons such as age creeping up, reflexes, eyesight, and reaction not what used to be (cops having less rights every day) and yes, having fears where I used to not even think about, and law enforcement not being what it used to be.
I began to feel as I would be a hazard to my fellow officers if I stayed. I don't regret my decision to retire but I have also felt lost during my 11 months of retirement. Other people ask why I don't want to keep my LE certification, be a reserve, etc, but I'm not going to work as a sworn officer anymore, so why should I. I keep up my instructor certification, and I spent months kinda decompressing but now it is getting boring.
I would like to do something possibly in a civilian capacity remaining in criminal justice/LE/instructor but I just realize my limitations and can't carry gun and badge like I used to 25 yrs ago. My career was good but it does come a time when you have to turn it over to the youngsters.
While none of us are promised tomorrow, you can look at numerous examples on ODMP of those that overstayed their time. I wish all my brothers and sisters in blue God's blessings, but please don't stay too long.