Retired May 2017; Struggling with Anxiety and Depression
Worked 38 years in two different industries. Retired May 2017. Do NOT miss the job (worked on offshore oil rigs, 12 hrs / day, 21 days in a row, was detrimental to my health).
Zero financial worries, health excellent (I read horror stories online of those in poor health), wife still teaching.
Do all the cooking / shopping / cleaning at home. Lost 25+ lbs at gym, headed up the Vote Yes school referendum committee (passed), helping daughters navigate their early 20's. Working with a start-up.
With all this positive stuff, Intellectually know that I am living a charmed life. Was Ok for first few months, then the bottom dropped out. Then - anxiety and depression every day, early wakening. Taking antidepressants.
Feel guilty just reading the daily newspaper. Feel should be having the time of my life. Am I missing something? Is it just waiting out the time? If I every brought up my feelings to anyone else, they would think I was crazy. But this is where I am.......