Retired today: very disorienting
by Nikki CPA
Today was my final day at work. I am 55 and worked at hard accounting jobs since I was 22. I never found the perfect job, although I tried alot of different types of accounting jobs.
I always saved alot of money and started planning my retirement about 10 years ago..a meticulous step by step plan.. and I finally got there.
When I was 50 or 52, I had panic attacks due to a bad boss. That was a major sign that I needed to reduce the amount of hours worked and control the type of work I was doing.
Then, I got what I called my "final" job as Tax Accountant, after four years, I started not to be able to handle the anxiety and burnout of all the files and bad records.
I felt really bad when telling my employer and coworkers I was leaving. This was something that I did not anticipate. They were always nice and I felt sorry for leaving them, but the work was so difficult, I hated it.
My Boss kept suggesting to me certain jobs I might try in the future. I did not tell him I was retiring ...only that I resigned and wasn't enjoying the work. All of them are older than me and are not retiring so I did not want to tell them. I am not planning to go back to accounting again. I really don't intend to have any job. The stress of just having to be somewhere at a certain time became bad. Maybe only volunteering, but I do know they are hard to find.
I don't have a plan of what to do now. I feel kind of disoriented. i am scared I won't make new friends and will be lonely. I hope I find my way. I don't want to tell my family and friends I am sort of embarrassed like I have given up on life. Worried something big and bad may happen like i crash my car or some medical accident that will mess up my limited income.
What are the first things I might try to do? Can you tell me anything to make me feel better or guide me. I guess I will start reading this website .