Retirement: All of this scares me....
I actually retired with a pension and health care three years ago at 56. I then took a similar job at another university. The job was pretty taxing (IT manager) and did not connect with my boss. I left after 2.5 years. I went to a third similar job at a small private college. They had a smaller staff that was jus okay. I put a lot of pressure on my self to advance things fast. I also had to live away during the week to do the job. Cut to the chase, I recently left after only 10 months.
I am now almost 60. We moved back to the original hometown, where we own our house. My wife had an on and off career as we raised the kids so she has no pension. We do have a decent nest egg and all things put together (pension and piece of nest egg) we can generate $80,000 a year. All sounds good, but I am petrified. I didn't really plan on leaving, but there were circumstances and I was burned out.
I have had bouts with anxiety and depression. I am having a major one right now. I guess I have a major fear of the unknown. The fear has cut into my sleep and energy. I am anxious all of the time.
It has only been a week since we quit and moved back home. Maybe I need to give it a few weeks, but it's a challenge. Advice?