Retirement: Don't know if I am going to make it.
Took a voluntary severance offer at age 53. I was smart about saving, etc. and I am good financially.
Always thought about early retirement and reinventing myself.
Long story short, I had a nervous breakdown (no sleep for a week, thoughts of death, on and on) about a month in and became very depressed. Still depressed 5 months later and constantly second guessing my decision to take the voluntary severance offer, as I was asked to stay on.
I am on medication for the depression, which has helped but still can't see a path forward. I feel like I am living in an alternate universe and I never would have imagined this. So upset with myself that I am barely hanging on.
Didn't realize how much the work meant to me.