Retirement: emotional roller coaster
by Lynne Perry
I've been divorced for pushing 40 years, no 'significant others (trust issues!!) and have been retired 2 months. Voluntary retirement at age 70.
I just couldn't stand the stress of the job anymore and was thrilled to leave. Plus the energy level at 70 sucks!
The first month was a combination of depression, anxiety, panic and euphoria!
Anxiety over money - big time as I've spent my life taking care of others so my 401k is very small, but have 2 pensions (one that buys 1 week's worth of groceries) and SS. The SS check is the largest.
I seem to have gotten over the panic at this point, but I don't want anything structured in my life anymore - no more getting up with an alarm, nothing that would demand that I have regular hours anywhere and I hate to go out of the house. Managed to stay home 4 days before I had to go somewhere! WHOO WHOO!!
My house is totally unorganized from family moving in and out over the last 15 years and having my floors replaced 2 years ago. Just didn't have the energy to work and reorganize too.
Now that I'm retired I know if I spend 2 weeks on the house and garage I'd have everything organized, but I've settled to trying to do two productive things a day, which I have been able to do.
Soooo the problem is I don't want to do anything. I want to enjoy sleeping til 9 am, having breakfast and coffee until 11, then thinking about fixing dinner. Spend time on computer with email, solitaire and jigsaw puzzles.
My problem? How long will my laziness last? Is there some a transition time before I'm willing to get on some type of productive schedule? should I worry about not being productive?