Retirement from Educational Setting
Loved my career of teaching for 32 years, but due to stress outside of the work environment I felt I was not able to give 100% required to do a good job so I retired in January of 2015.
It was a heart felt decision I made, but I believe it was the best for my well being.
During the first two months I went on extended Florida vacation and gave myself permission to rest. Returning in the spring provided so many things to do and freedom I have never had before that it was thrilling. Just going to the grocery store during a time when it was not crowded was a simple pleasure.
However once back in former surroundings, I started to lose regular contact with friends who are all still working, and that depressed me. I think the real culprit is late menopause hitting at age 58 that has put me into a tail spin.
I'm very depressed and tired most of the time, feeling that life has lost a lot of the joy I once knew. I signed up to substitute a few days a month and that has helped with colleague connections, but energy is still low and depression is paramount.
I think when a physical issue coincides with retirement it blurs the lines between what is retirement depression and a physical malady.
Getting ready to downsize and move is another huge burden at this stage with the extra physical and emotional energy required to quote Disney "LET IT GO", so I have put that on hold and allow myself time to adjust physically.
Allowing time to adjust is important; the spring of life was wound tightly and it takes time to release it slowly.