Riding the Wave
I have been on this site for about 2 years and thank Wendy for creating it. I have benefited from many of the stories and posts.
Some folks on this site are so joyful - I just love reading about your pursuits. And others had a significant negative experience after retiring.
I came out of that and I have felt pretty good over the last year. But one thing I noticed is that my happiness and then sense of depression/uneasiness/boredom comes in waves. I will feel good for awhile and then feel myself being more melancholy than usual.
It is at those times that I think of my life with regrets instead of joy. I really get frustrated with myself, as I have had a good life and I can't do anything about the regrets.
Intellectually, I know that life is short and it is silly to waste this time moping and feeling sorry for myself. I wondered if this is just natural, i.e., you can't be happy all the time or whether I need counseling, etc.
I meditate (not regularly) and try to do things with friends, etc., but I really get frightened by the prospect that my "lows" will increase.