Stuck! Retired and not happy!
I loved my work as an advance practice nurse, loved caring for my patients, etc.
My husband died unexpectedly in 2009. In 2010 our group lost our positions!
I was eligible at the age of 64 ,so took retirement as I needed the steady income. I was later offered a part time position seeing patients in an outpatient setting, was kind of happy again. That lasted three years .
It has been 14 months with no work . I was busy caring for my mother who recently passed away and now..........what??????
I have lost my identity as a wife, daughter , and health care provider. Feeling so depressed and tearful at times. I am 68 years old, but feel 40 , am healthy, just can't shake the idea that I should still be working, having trouble accepting all of this.
I am lucky in that I have a friend that travels with me, am healthy, have a lovely family, have enough income, etc., am embarrassed in that I feel so empty and useless, no hobbies except reading, bought a dog, great companion but also responsibility.
I sit around too much, too much TV, have all kinds of excuses for not doing much. Belong to a gym and a church and don't go to either . Belong to some social groups but I don't go to meetings.
Don't want medication!
Hopefully I will get myself off the couch and find something useful . Maybe next year I can write a more positive story. Maybe I won't be "stuck" any longer :-)