I had put it off for several years, but, I knew that it was inevitable as summer follows spring and as dawn follows dusk. The eternal cycle of birth and death.
My wife had been pushing me to purchase my "eternal" resting place for some time, BUT, I did not want to address the topic of my own mortality. We had buried both of my parents in the last few years as well as my mates mother, those were not easy times. Then, of late we laid her father to rest, that was the end of our parents, we had both become orphans!
I had never given that term much thought as it applied to ONLY children, young children. Now, as senior citizens, it applied to us, and I was not comfortable with the fact that we were "next in line." This was not a pleasant thought, but it was reality.
So, as we drove to the cemetery where both my wife and I would rest for eternity, I began trying to put my arms around the concept of "eternity." I found it impossible to do. We would be at the same location as my parents as well as a number of aunts and uncles that have been in that "eternity" mode for a number of years.
We met with an individual at the office and then followed to the area where the crypts were located. We looked around and choose a location...a bit low for me.....my wife would be cremated and her urn put in my crypt.
We returned to the office, signed the paper work, paid and left......all a bit disturbing to say the least. The following morning my wife suggested that we go back and choose another location and in fact wanted her own crypt for her remains......ug!
We had to go thru the entire process once again this time choosing crypts at eye level...she was content and I was flustered as well as depressed. She suggested that we visit the graves of my parents which we did. It was a VERY melancholy day to say the least.
As I gazed at my parents graves and remembered all of the relatives that we would be joining, it left me with a void inside......could this really happen to us?
Will I be in this crypt here in this town, in this cemetery, with my name in bronze for eternity?
Well, my assignments on earth are not quite over yet, my other half is now planning a European cruise, so I guess the crypts will be on hold for awhile.......I hope!