They say she/he should have reached out
Last year my house was flooded; I became very depressed. I live alone, I am 77 years old with a mind and energy of a 50 year old.
I have a couple of friends, they still work so they do not have much free time. I have no family, I love to do watercolor, to write, and to cook.
I am so depressed I could just end it all... What is the use of having so much to offer if no one wants it?
I invite people for dinner, some come -- but they never call back (supposedly I am too good of a cook, cannot compete) some just do not want to have anything to do with me. I try, I try so hard.
What is it about me that turns people completely off?
I just wish I could close my eyes and never wake up. I was born in France, I lived in Mexico for four years, I am fluent in French, Spanish, and, of course, English.
One would think that I could communicate right?