Tired of Trying
I retired 10 ten years ago and since that time, my brother has moved in twice because of job downsizing. Our family relationship is not close.
Since then I have grown 10 years older and closer to 80. I feel my time is limited and it is. I am a retired teacher with no husband and no kids, no grandkids.
I work online with a student who has learning disabilities. I have a few friends. Use to sing on choir and work with the Sunday school with plays and programs. Now, because of Covid, I am out of it mentally and physically.
I want to downsize and move into a senior citizen apartment. I am having trouble with motivation to declutter and prepare to do this. I get depressed just looking at stuff.
Please do not tell me to get medication, get therapy, and pray. I do all of this.
I do not want to be a burden on family and friends. I am tired of trying.