Family History of depression and suicide. I retire in 4 years
My father always dreamed of retiring and when he finally did he committed suicide a year later. He could not adjust to staying home and doing nothing. He became very co-dependant to his wife who still worked.
When my dad was very sick with depression he told me there is only so much TV you can watch. My dad never had a post retirement plan and never did much to take care of his depression which he suffered from most of his adult life.
I will retire from my job as a correctional officer in 4 years at the age of 50. I've also dreamed of this day for a very long time.
I don't feel like I get much socially or fulfilling from my job, its just 8 dead hours a day that pays the bills. The only thing I feel that I will miss from job after retirement is the appreciation of coming home each day.
My oldest of two children joined the Air Force recently and left home. The depression I felt from this was incredible. This loss of not having my son in my household was and is very hard to deal with. I never factored that my children will be grown and moved out at about the same time I retire.
I've been much more of a family man then a
a career man and I believe that is where my true identity and self worth comes from.
I always thought I would be fine because I would retire from a unpleasant job and then have more time with my family. I guess I was just oblivious to the fact that children grow up, move out, and sometimes move away.
This has made me re-think everything about retirement and life.