I Don't Know HOW To Retire
I am still in full time work, at nearly 65, commuting 4 hours a day. I am incredibly tired and think that I should retire but what do I do then?
I am divorced, live alone and have done for 14 years but have 3 children and 2 granddaughters. I never used to feel lonely and had friends but I seem to have lost them along the way and starting to feel very lonely and depressed with no motivation.
I now seem to think and dream about the past and the bad decisions I made and the hurt I caused people through naivety and stupidity.
I don't feel a good person and thinking that this is now my punishment for divorcing and wrecking my family when I decided to divorce my husband. I know I must stop this negativity but starting to feel not in control and it all spiralling away from me if I should give up work or it gives me up if I am made redundant or get the sack for poor performance.
I have always been strong and coped but obviously not coping very well now. I have read the other comments from retirees and am glad I am not alone.
I know it's in my own hands to get out of this spiral of depression and I will try my hardest but as everyone who has written has found, it is very difficult and what makes it worse is I only have myself to blame but I can see that this can happen to anyone at this time of their life no matter how successful they have been in work and family life.
I am glad I found this page and will come back to it often now.