Military Retirement: Lost as well
by Brian / Portland ME
I'm really glad to see a forum with others like me. I retired from the Navy in 2013. I worked as a Command Career Counselor and it was the most rewarding job assisting Sailors in their careers and college ventures.
Once retirement hit, I tried applying what i knew to the civilian sector and there is not a single job like it. I worked a couple crap jobs at AAA and a private security firm and quit both. I have good disability from the VA plus retirement so my family is financially fine but I'm not satisfied. I'm using Voc Rehab to go to school and tried my hand at a Vet Tech degree but it did not pan out after 6 semesters.
I'm currently trying for another degree but finding the same level of dissatisfaction, like a zombie just going through the motions. I have high anxiety/ severe depression, quick to anger, and a severe distrust of most people. I hole up in my house most of the time.
I do have some great immediate family (wife and son) and pets for support that keep me mostly grounded and from becoming one of the 22, although those thoughts occur daily and I'm getting help through the VA for this.
I feel like I can't find my nitch and like I'm failing because of it. I just wanted to put my scenario out there.